Parent interviews are always slightly awkward. I mean basically they are deciding if you are a serial killer or not.
But really.
I love kids. I want to spend the rest of my life with them. But sometimes it's hard to relate that to parents. And half the time they are making sure JR. doesn't fall on his head, than listen intently to your answers. But you know, it's good life experience. The more of these you do, the more "somewhat" comfortable you get with it.
Partly through the experience of finding a job, I just say to myself, I want to be back in Montana with Livie and Chance, and that's true. But I have to remember that they had to meet me for the first time just like these parents and kiddos have to do too.
I sure have perseverance! I've learned that from school. Whether it be trying to get an A on a math test, applying to be an RA twice before getting the job, or responding to what seems like hundreds of mom's and dad's on care.com. I know that God makes us all different, but I think he made me persistent because he knew that I could do it. (With his help of course!)
In church today, Pastor Thom mentioned the verses, James 1:2-4,
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
This verse struck me today because all the perseverance that I had last year really did help me to grow. Last year was tough, but I made it through. This reminder is so great. And I need to remember that this is the case for jobs too. Whether I babysit for a family or work at Blue Sky preschool, or not do either of those things, my perseverance will not go unnoticed to God.
Another verse that was mentioned in church today was Genesis 50:19 -20, it states,
"But Joseph said to them, "Don't be afraid. Am I in the place of God? You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives."
What I loved about this verse is that harm was suppose to happen. I know that sounds strange, but my cyst was suppose to harm me, losing my RA position harmed me, but you know what God had the bigger plan! And I am OKAY! We can't see the big picture that God see's. He see's everyone and knows how we all intertwine, so he really knows what is best for everyone.
He's got it all in the bag. I know that. I need to be patient. But I sure am glad to know that he has the grand ol' plan and see's my perseverance. That sure is a great thing!
If Rose wasn't my middle name, "worry" would be! But one thing I have promised myself this year is that I will not worry. Or worry as much. I know it's going to be a great year and I am excited for classes and friends' coming back. But I am going to make it a point to not worry. I think I have been doing a pretty good job of not worrying this summer. One thing I constantly tell Alissa when I text her is, this and this and this happened, but I am NOT GOING TO WORRY. It's definitely a growing experience for me, but I think I am doing okay.
At the end of the day, God's going to take care of me whether or not I have a job. And he loves me so much. So for now, I will keep praying, waiting for his guidance. And at the end of the day, as Paige says,
"Parents really know in the first 60 seconds of meeting you if you are safe to leave their children with you or not."
xoxo,Miss Whitney
