Tonight at Cru when we were worshiping, my eyes scanned the room and I saw some of my girls (Muir girls) sitting together and I smiled. My mind flashed backed to my freshmen year, two years ago, but what feels like an eternity. Watching my girls reminds me so much of my freshmen year. Knowing that I had so many years of college ahead of me and feeling so loved in this new "place." Now as a junior I just wonder where the time has gone. It's crazy to me how long I have actually lived in SLO now. After Cru finished, all my girls came and hugged me and we talked and I was just reminded by Jesus how much they have affected my life, but also how much they are STILL in my life and I do not need to worry about losing them.
When I was scanning the room tonight, another picture came into my head, one of me talking to Michelle, "my mother" and telling her SUPER long stories in like 5 minutes! I remember how fast I would talk to tell her EVERYTHING I needed to update her with. Tonight we talked again the first time in what seems like an eternity as well. But it was SO good.
Being a junior now, I realize how much time has passed since I have been in school and I can't help but wonder if I have done ALL that I can do to glorify Jesus and be a good steward for Him. During winter break Mom asked me, "Whit, would you rather have never been an RA at all or been one for at one quarter?" And you know the answer of course is for at least one quarter. Being an RA for the short time that I was enabled me to create relationships with freshmen I would never have known other wise. But you know what makes me so happy? That they still NEED me. I know this because they tell me or they show it by the hugs they give me when I visit in Muir. Or the fact that I am bringing Amber an i clicker tomorrow to use because I know she needs one! As silly as it sounds that an i clicker is that significant, but in this case it so is.
I know I am rambling on and not being very focused tonight, but the main reason for this blog is for me to share what my heart wants to say and all this just needed to be spit out tonight, you know?
I know it seems like I have talked about being an RA a lot. But I have come to realize that that was a HUGE stepping stone in this thing we call, life. And even though it was only one quarter and only about 3 and a half months of being in that dorm, but as Michelle told me tonight, those three months could have made a bigger difference in my life and my kids life than any other 12 months put together. I am sure I learned more in those three months than ever before.
My hope is that while I was in Muir my kids felt the love I tried to show them and they knew I truly cared. And my hope continues to be that I will find them and they will find me when we need each other. Because God put them in my life, so I know they are not going anywhere! And lastly, I hope when they are juniors and thinking back on their freshmen year (like I did tonight) I hope they think about Muir and the love they felt from others and I hope they knew that this is where they were suppose to be.
I'll sign out how I use to sign out my potty talks for my girls last quarter...
Mama Whit
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