So, I decided that since I am so long winded, especially on fb statuses, that I would start a blog so I can talk as long as I need to! With the winter break coming to a close and classes starting on Monday I have been thinking a lot about how the break went and what I am expecting for winter quarter.
As far as the break goes, I DID NOT expect to go into the hospital! But as I told my grandpa on the phone when I was in the hospital, "If you have to go, might as well go all in or go home!" HA
But seriously, I am so blessed that it went so smoothly and all the doctors, nurses, and workers were SO good to me. With the news that I have ENDOMETRIOSIS (that's a mouth full) it worries me a little, especially from the fact that I could get more cysts, but if I let myself worry, I'd go crazy. I just need to be more aware of my body now and "things" for lack of a better term, that could "grow" inside of me. When I think about the fact that a blood filled cyst the size of a softball was inside of my right ovary, it gives me chills. No one really wants to think about that. When the doctor asked me why I didn't feel it inside of me I responded with, "I have been doing push ups and sit ups.... I just thought I had hard abs!" Don't we all Whit? Don't we all? Even in a hospital bed I am cracking people up when I am not even trying to...
Losing my RA job was another stresser of the break. The love that I have for my residents was so GREAT that I can't imagine not living with them. The best that I can though, I have tried to keep a positive attitude with this, but you know, it's hard. The BEST thing that could have come out of this, has though. I do get to share a room with one of my very best friends which truly makes a world of difference. And you know, even though I want to still be in Muir so badly, it is probably a blessing for me to not be under so much stress this quarter. Life as an RA is hard and it's hard to balance your job and school. And of course not being able to balance these two things was why I lost my job. I think my school work is definitely not going to suffer as much now though.
My goal of the break was to NOT STRESS. HA, so much for that! Through all of this though, I have learned to TRUST GOD more than ever before. When you get admitted to the hospital, lose your job, and living arrangements all in the same day, you kind of have to. Or as my Mama reminded me the other day, "Pray Whit, it really does work." So, I will pray, I will journal, I will work hard, I will keep an eye on my body, I will laugh, I will have fun, I will smile, and I will hug my friends a lot. Because you know why? Life goes on. It's as simple as that.
Whittie
December 14, 2012 - Day I was admitted.
New Apartment
Nursery Duty at New Day. Exactly where I love to be!
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