Blessings

So, I made the mistake tonight to drink coffee about two hours ago and now I can’t sleep. Tonight, I am going to bed with so much joy, so I thought I would share.

Today, Alissa and were calculating grades and GPA, we first calculated my “lowest” possible grades for the quarter of what I would get. It came out to be a 3.2! That was exciting! But then we thought let’s turn up the heat a bit. So, we upped up a few grades (still probable grades) and it landed me at a 3.5… DEAN’S LIST. Say what? I have been trying to get there for the past 2 and a half years. We decided that is my goal for the quarter. I believe in myself and I belief I can do it!

You know, if I do accomplish this goal, I will be SO proud of myself. How special and earned I will feel if I make Dean’s List this quarter for the first time. I’d much rather have it this way than getting it every quarter. You know why? Because I will know that I truly earned it through really hard work. Not to say that people who earn it every quarter are not hard workers, they are, and they deserve it! But for me to have worked SO hard and to finally accomplish it, that will make me so happy.

I have come to realize a lot this quarter that the fact that school comes hard for me and it takes me longer to understand concepts has molded me into who I have become. I am glad it’s harder for me because it has given me the work ethic that I have today. All my experiences and challenges have taught me so much. Yes, it sucked to get a 1.9 last quarter, but there were things to learn from that. I learned so much being an RA last quarter and I learned so much in my classes despite getting bad grades.

How blessed I am to go to such an amazing school with some pretty amazing professors. Every quarter is a blessing no matter what happens. We’re always going to have struggles, but it is how we overcome them that show who we truly are. As Kelsey always tells me, I am a fighter. It’s true though, I won’t go down without a fight. And trust me, I have gone down quite a bit. I love the saying, fall down seven times and stand up eight. Jesus has taught me this concept VERY well. There have been days in the past where I have been on my knees sobbing my eyes and not understanding why I got that D on that test, or that D in that class, or even that F in that class last quarter. By the time I got to that F though, I had already been molded and strengthen by the Lord that I didn't have to fall apart quite as much.

I have seen as low as grades can get and you know what? Life goes on. You think things are going to fall apart and the world is going to end, but it doesn't. LIFE GOES ON.  I got an F, but I’m still human. I’m still a precious daughter of God. And you know? That’s quite a bit more important.

Whitney Rose